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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 01:12

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

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She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

He knew the spot.

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Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

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I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

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He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

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He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

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Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

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On the 31st of Jan this month .

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

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But ive been too sick for many years..

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

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When she asked me how she looked .

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

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I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

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Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

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Thats was my nicest nick name for him

This is soul school!.

She found it foreign!.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Put me off passion for life!!

She wouldn,t have been !

As i do to all so called friends.?

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I was 9 years of age.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I write beautiful poetry .

What did i know ?

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I have no regrets .

Who then, do I blame.?

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

My family never makes their pension either.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I know ,a lot about trauma.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Ive learnt so much.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Im still living with it.

Especially a lifetime of it.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

He resisted the act ,that day.

I don,t even have a pension.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I waited trembling.

(And it was in our own minds.)

I was scared of men, in general

So, i spoilt her more .

We were not on the streets..

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

But, we were locked up after school.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Why did i forgive my father ?

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I will be 64.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

It was going to be , some day.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

We all went to grammer schools

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Comes on , in middle age.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

She loved him until the end.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

She was in good health!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

One cannot live in the past .

Was to survive, this bastard.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I said to her

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I never cut or harmed myself..

But it wasn’t much.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I was seconnd youngest,

She married twice! .

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I couldn’t, believe it.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I was very sick at this time too.

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Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

And i lived it daily.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

All the time i was locked up.

I could never make a relationship work though!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Would this be the day?

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I think the readers, may guess!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

My life is so biszare .

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

So whats the point in blame.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.